On the inspiration for the tune, she says: “During the withdrawals of my antidepressants, I realized how reliant my mind/body were to these pills I had been taking for years. During withdrawals, basic human needs like eating and sleeping became a chore and forced, my emotions only functioned in extremes and in response to the deregulation, I went into a state of dissociation for a long period of time. After producing the instrumental of this song, I needed a vocal melody. I decided to flip through my journal and only found substance in the pages I had catalogued my withdrawal symptoms. These observations helped form the melody while also adding an ironic lyrical spin. It became a love song to my antidepressants, imagined as a lover I couldn’t bear living without.”